Tuesday, December 27, 2011

New Year, New Stuff.. But let's talk about the old stuff first!!!

Hey everyone... did you miss me again?  I have and continue to be much like a chicken... and I love to draw them too!  I have been running around in circles for weeks now.  I have gone places, seen things and then neglected to tell you about them... I'm so sorry!  But you can know this;  it has been fun! 
Escapades and Adventures! 
We took our trip to Mount Ida, Arkansas on 11/11/11... mined some crystals, made some new friends, checked up on old friends and generally moved some energy around.  I am so wanting to purchase the Crystal Inn!  Its a quaint place, right outside of Mt. Ida, and in a great location for all the mines in the area.... and it's for sale!!!  But not for me, not right now..... dang it! 

I will continue to go there for my annual retreat to the mountains and crystals - especially since it's located in the CRYSTAL CAPITAL of the WORLD!!  (that according to the Mt. Ida Chamber of Commerce, Tourism Dept.)    So the escapades were on the mountains... rituals and smudging and just generally bonding with Mother Earth.  Oh, and the gathering of crystals...  

Orbs helping me to pick out "Girlie Mon"

We all gathered our crystals from the mud and earth... I thanked each one for jumping out of the dirt into my bucket!  I purchased one great big point... named him "Girlie Mon"  and felt that he had a reggae vibe to him!  He is gorgeous.  So I used his energy to fuel me as I sang... yes, I said "SANG" the other crystals into my bucket.  The other people laughed at me as I went by, humming and scavenging for points... until they started noticing that the crystals were coming to them as well, when I was nearby singing... who was laughing then!   ME!  And I came home with a lovely bucket full of quartz points.

The last bit of  Adventure was on the day that we were to leave Mt. Ida and make our leisurely way back to Tennessee...  We loaded most all of the crystals into heavy duty totes and tied them to a shelf on the back of the SUV.  That was not acceptable to the crystals... as we started to roll out of our parking place, terrible scraping noises started at the right front tire.  Sounded like a rock or something was stuck in between the brake pad and the rotor... not brake trouble again! 
We all got out of the vehicle and start circling trying to figure out what the noise is, and how to fix it.  As I stop to listen and think (at the back of the vehicle), it comes to me that we are going to have to unload and put all the crystals in the back of the SUV with us.  They are not going to ride on that shelf thing!  Hmmmm!  So we unload, and reload.  All the boxes fit in the back of the SUV, as do our suitcases, tools and cooler!  Yay!  Back into the vehicle, like the circus clowns, we clamber in, and start the vehicle to moving... screech, screech screech and then... we all hear a "plunk" and the rock falls out of the wheel!  We are on our way!  Yay!!

By the way, on the trip to Arkansas, we used a tank and a half... for approximately 900 miles... and the same for the way back!  This in a vehicle that usually gets about 350 miles to a tank.... and there were 5 of us and all our stuff in the SUV!  Wow! 
Oh, and another thing that we noticed:  the temperature inside the truck was hot!  I had the ac going to try to keep us all comfortable, but it was 75 degrees inside, and 65 outside.... in NOVEMBER!   Comment on that one! 

BTW, did I mention the obs that were following us? 

There is much more to share, especially since I have not kept you all up to date... but here is a bit for you to read and ponder as I go find something to eat! 
Living in Love and Light,


Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Affects of a Reiki Attunement.... ramblin and rumblin around in my brain, by Patricia

Eh... Hello all! It has been quite a while since I have taken a moment to focus on my communications with you in the written word.  I am just beginning to crawl out from under a set of wonderful Reiki attunements... I was the giver of, rather than the receiver... and wow!  It is a real difference!  I love love love getting attunements as my wall of certificates can attest to... but giving them to a whole class of people - I can't begin to share how much energy flows for that. The energy starts about 7 to 10 days before the scheduled class, and just builds and builds and builds.  As it should!  I gave 6 attunements the first day of classes, and 5 Master Attunements the 2nd day!  I am so glad that I had all the help that I had as well!  I felt like I was moving in a haze of energy!  Thrilling!  Awesome!  I had help with each and every attunement that was given.. otherwise, who knows what would have happened?!  So now I am in the rest mode.  I am going to take a few days of vacation and rest up.. for the next class!!
I look for you all there!   (In one form or another!) 

oh, did I mention that I have 2 art shows that I have been readying for?  See you at Silke's!!! 

Loving life!

Patricia (aka Patsy)

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Destination Unknown and Other Jouneys by Patricia

Photo by Brothersoft.com

Years ago a boss and friend gave me a going away card.  It spoke of the journey of life.  A reminder that the destination is not life, but the actual journey.... that is your life.. and mine.  For a long time, I was always looking ahead and making plans for "when we ..." and "after I...".  I am now learning that the here and now is what life is about.  I am working and playing and enjoying what I have now... I still set goals for myself. But I try to stay in the moment and listen to the birds that are singing now!  What a loverly song they are singing to me now.  And not just to me, but also to you!  Take just a moment an be present in this moment and listen! 
This particular thought process was brought to mind but the wonderful blog of my friend, Dahlis Roy.  She has posted a wonderful blog titled "Carry water, chop wood".  Dahlis shares what I believe is my next goal.  She speaks: " The quiet mind ("jing") is more present now with less frantic push to always be reading, drawing, or writing something."  Oh, to be more quiet!  I think....? 
Last Friday I went to my first session with an acupuncturist.  I have developed a bit of a problem with my sciatic nerve.  A problem that I feel my body may have manifested because of my constant movement.  I told the Doctor: "I am always on the move.  I even do my meditation on the move.  I have a hard time with being still."
I am as water flowing in a rocky creek bed...
even when the surface is mirror smooth,
I am moving and churning underneath. 

I am most comfortable in my body when I am on the move.  I can let my left brain take charge of the movement and my right brain is then able to flow and create. I am thinking that movement is a good thing... But perhaps a different type of movement is called for.
Journeys, movement and flow.  I shall always be in flow, and so always on my journey. 
Life is so wonderfully chaotic! 
Join me?!

Living in love and light! 


Monday, June 13, 2011

Hello World... Have you missed me?

I am here.  I just wanted to let you all know.  I am here and I am thinking and creating and the circus is here at my home.  That is why you are not being blessed with the ponderings that I have on a more frequent basis.  Sorry....
The circus is at my home and it consists of a cat, a big dog, a little dog, and a man.  I am the ring leader.  I am not in charge of anything.  But I direct the circus.... Sometimes.  I stand in the middle, for the most part, and issue food, buy supplies, clean up messes and wipe butts... oh, and I laugh.  A lot.  I sometimes laugh so much my sides hurt... and I cry.  Sometimes I cry more than I laugh.  That is okay too.  I am trying to keep things really simple and easy... and funny. 
So, one day, when I decide not to be a part of the circus anymore... I will tell you about it.
Until then,
I'm living in Love and Light!


Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Wonderful Summer,
You have arrived!
Heat, clear sky....
and dandilions!

Waterpark, anyone? 

June has arrived, much to my delight!  I have been waiting for my summer to officially begin, and here it is!  No excuses now!  All the projects will now commence with much banging, singing and laughter! 
I surge forward with sure feet and true spirit... and I share my love of life with all of you who are coming with me and behind me.  Joy to you all!  Let's go!  Exhiliration and excitement! 
I move - forward, backwards and sideways - and always in a spiral!  I share this with you... along with a large serving of laughter and joy! 

living in love and light,

Saturday, May 21, 2011

I Am... today, A Rainbow Child! by Patricia

There you are,
immersed in your emotions.
let them flow from you in ripples and waves,
gentle, gentle...
find your center in the chaos.

Hallo my friends,
I wan to share with you the fabulous event I went to in Nashville, TN, called the Galactic Expo.  I have been going for several years now and each time it is more fun and entertaining... and of course, enlightening.  This year was no exception!  But for some reason, each event that I participated in left me weeping.  Each person/healer/communicator touched me and the contact they gave me was overwhelming.  For some reason, that morning, the piece of jewelry that I chose to wear was a large piece of snowflake obsidian, in the shape of a triangle, hanging over my heart chakra.  Did I intuit that my heart was wide open that day, and my need was a little filtering of the emotions that were going to be flowing?  Perhaps.... either way, I seemed to have wept my way through the expo... in a much needed period of release and allowance.  I seemed to have accepted the fact, or perhaps given myself permission to be, a person that has emotions... and is allowed to show them.  Wow... that's a big lot of permission to go with! In the past,  I have not been one to show emotions... I don't like to show a lot of emotion, as I have the misconception that showing emotion is showing weakness.  (Don't ask me where I dragged that out from.. but I have carried it with me for lifetimes.)  I am sharing it with you all now, because you will be the ones that will be benefiting from the onslaught!   Warning! Warning! Warning!  Here is your chance to run!  It's gonna be like a volcano!  Some will be burned in their boots!  Others will be drowned in the chaotic whirlpool!  Or you may be the lucky one that feels that you are seated beside a burbling brook, all shady and calming.  There is no schedule here, you will get what you get! 
So, back to the Expo!  I also had my aura photo made... also an annual event!  This year there was a lot of action going on in the photo! I look like a rainbow child!  Blue and turquoise and yellow, red and orange and green!  Little dots of white.... and the man that gave me an explanation of the photo - wow! ... again with the tears~ already!?  It's funny how the inner is so reflected in the outer!  My aura reflected the turmoil in my heart and in my throat in swirls of greens and yellows.  And with the incoming reds and oranges... the upcoming explosion that is soon to be, will be an exciting event!  I think that I will channel it into a large piece of artwork... the pottery is going to be opened soon... this could be a very chaotic pot or bowl!  All the colors of my aura were bright and reflected my focus on this dimension... at this time....I am where I am... there is an echo here!
I also found a wonderful selection of art of god/dess's!  I found and purchased depictions of Kali, Shiva, Durga and Budda!  They are sharing space in my meditation room now, and have been working with me in much needed ways!  Thanks to all!
So for those of you who missed the Expo this year... there is always the next!  I hope to share the experience with you in person! 
The past weekend was a wonderful, clearing, exhilarating time!  Now, we shall see what the upcoming days bring! 
Living in Love and Light,

AKA Patsy

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Giving up Ganesh (Ieshia)

Wow, it's been a while. Sorry for that. Life is getting away from me! Maybe that's a good problem to have. In any case, here are some of my most recent musings.

Recently, I finally got up the gusto and set up my own personal altar. Not anything elaborate, mind you, but something that I can definitely use for my meditation practice and my intentions and that reminds me of all the wonderful things that are in my life. On my altar, I've placed a lot of my crystals, some I've mined from the ground on my own, others that I've purchased and some that have been given to me....each has a special meaning and a special story that reminds me of my connections...with others, with God, and with myself. Also, I have my Tingsha's, whose clear sound help me get in my space and who also singal a detachment from Spirit so that I may return to being here and now. A rosary, to remind me of my Catholic roots, where I come from, and also the hidden Divine Feminine, that was carefully hidden but still honored in the Faith of my roots. Water, mirror, candle, tarot cards, and whatever else I feel needs to be there, I'm sure will make it on to my altar. They all have a meaning and a reason for being in that place, even though I may not even consciously know it, or acknowledge it yet.

The one item on my altar though, that is causing a stirring in my home (besides my Tarot/Oracle cards-which is a WHOLE OTHER article in itself) is my small 10 inch high statue of the Hindu God, Ganesh. Now, I always like to say that I know enough about something to be dangerous, and in this case, that means that I know enough about Ganesh to know that he is a Hindu Deity, called "the remover of obstacles", he has an elephants head (some form of childhood episode involving a be and re-heading, I think), and he appeals to me on a lot of levels. In my home, the danger of this is that I'm willing to bring an image of this God into my space because a)I like and identify with the phrase "remover of obstacles", 2) the statue is a gorgeous piece of artwork, and 3) in no way am I actually praying to Ganesh and replacing my beliefs with Hinduism. However, I am aware enough that to others, having an image of  one of another religions deities in my house could lead some to believe that I have converted or am "worshipping idols". (on another note....let me just tell ya about the "idols" of the Catholic Church...oh yeah...they're there.....and this could lead to a whole other discussion of the human mind's need for a solid construct representing God....maybe I need to go for a psychology degree)

Ok...getting back on track.

Being raised as a Catholic and now married to a Protestant, I am very aware of the differences in our thinking and conditioning as far as religion goes. I'm extremely familiar with statues and images depicting the Blessed Virgin, St. Joseph, and the baby Christ....my husband and his family...not so much. Oh, I know that they've seen them...but these type of religious trappings were not a part of their weekly/daily religious experience. So, when I brought the statue home a year ago, I didn't blare any horns or make any announcements....quietly placing it where I would see it and know it was there, contemplating it and being greatful of any lessons I could learn in regards to it. My husband had a few issues at first, and yes, there was an argument, but overall, once I assured him there was no conversion/worshipping happening, he seemed to tolerate and indulge me Ganesh. Well, now that I've created an altar space for myself, Ganesh has come out of the closet (or, off the bookshelf) so to speak.

I did tell my husband before I let him walk in to our room and see my altar for himself.....informing him that if it bothered him, I would make a new space in another room of our home, which he asked me to do. Here's where it gets sticky though....while he may not care for Ganesh (and my tarot) on the altar...the room I was going to place my altar in, is the room his parents will be staying in when they come to visit tomorrow. At this point, I chose not to move the altar yet for this reason beause my in-laws will not hesitate to make their feelings known and could possibly be extremely offended by my altar. (yeah, I had a hard time with the concept of an altar too at one time. Christians are not known for having a home altar, that's in a church.)

So, last night, he did again ask me to take Ganesh and my cards off the altar before his parents come to visit....and while I'm having a bit of an issue with this...I will comply with his wishes in order to keep the peace and avoid an all out scene which my family is not ready for at this time. (you should have seen their faces when I compared Harry Potter to a parable...saying it's just a story demonstrating good and evil and such....not good) Do I feel I'm hiding my beliefs from his parents? Yes, maybe a little bit, but I also don't want this visit to be about competing or different belief systems...it's supposed to be about my daughter and her dance recital and a time for my children to visit with their Grandpaents in Love. My solution then is to go ahead and close the cover on the box of cards on my altar...that way they're no longer visible....and to move Ganesh to a spot on top of my husbands large chest....only about 5 feet higher than he is now, but out of the immediate field of vision. When I asked my husband if he thought his parent's would come into our bedroom and see it, his response was "if it's out, they will"...and he chuckled. So, I like to believe he's becoming more comfortable with my changing and evolving beliefs, even if he doesn't think his parents will.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Spring Storms - and Washing Away the Debris

Storm growling through the town,
Looking for a place to land.

Water pouring down in large heavy drops,
Clearing, cleaning, flushing, flooding.

Look, the wind throws it's weight around -
moving nature's furniture to it's new spot,
Indifferent to the cries of joy, alarm, esctasy!

Storm growling through the town,
Looking for a place to land.

This April has brought many spring storms through our neighborhood, tearing up trees, buildings and scaring the crap out of most everybody.  I don't know what to say to many of you who are still cowering and shaking because of the still looming storms that are heading our way... Take cover, perhaps? 
My dog and I are hanging out in the upper level of our house.  Enjoying the weather... she and I have always enjoyed listening to and viewing the wonderful glory of a full-on thunderstorm!  I wish that I could share that wonder with those of you who are afraid.  But I can't, so I send you love and calming thoughts;  take ease, it will be all right in the end. 
I see the chaos of this season as a clearing out of the old and the making way for the new.  The spring has always been a time of renewal.  But you have to get rid of the old stuff first, sorry! So, now to use this analogy for my own life.. what am I willing to get rid of to make room for the new things that are just on the other side of the door for me?   Good question! And one that I cannot answer for myself at this time.  I have delegated that decision to my higher self to deal with... easy way out?  You betcha!  But I believe that the things that are leaving will be for my highest good, and will be good healthy choices!  I just want to ride out the chaos and roll into the calm after the storm... when you come out of hiding and see all the clearing and cleaning up that needs to be done to make way for the new growth. 
I had originally thought that this post would be about growing and green things.  I had just finished the post from Dahlis Roy on Out of the Blue, and really enjoyed the reading and thought processes.  But then the storm began its song (and dance!) and distracted me.  So please enjoy the reading and the storm!  I hope the new growth that comes after the clearing out will be to your liking... after you finish the clean up and step back to view the new visions in front of you.

Living in Love and Light,
Patricia Seay Dollar
aka Patsy

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Waiting, Watching....Receiving by Patricia Seay Dollar

 Photo from Galaxy Tab Wallpapers

I have advised the universe of my wishes, wants, desires.... and now I stand back and allow - sometimes impatiently, I might add, as I eagerly hold out my hands, and open my heart to receive the gifts.   I always ask with the addendum to Spirit, "... for my highest good, and for the highest good of all involved..." And I always get my answer... always.  And so I now release my requests, and ... allow. 

Thank you. 

Living in Love and Light,

Monday, April 18, 2011

Letters about Lessons by Patsy

Today I sat down and wrote a letter to my oldest son.  I told him:  "Distance yourself from the shoulda, coulda, woulda's and look at what the lesson is." 
Hmmm.  How many of us have ever been able to take a step back and look at the lessons of our day?  Not many, I'm guessing.  But I think that many of us might want to take that step back and take a look at what we just finished with and how it affected us and our lives.  Some things will be delicious and juicy and easy to learn, while others are a bitter brew that we concocted for ourselves.  Things are not always easy to let go of and step back from either.  I'm getting better at it, but only because I keep telling myself to breathe - let it go and breathe!  I tell a lot of other people that too!  Not sure that they always appreciate it, as they are usually in the throes of drama, but I still mouth the words at them...

So, word for the day?  Let go of the conga line of shoulda-coulda-woulda, and breathe! 
Now lets see me take my own advice! 

The light of our day is softly dimming,
The lessons have been taught.
Shake them out and examine the patterns!
Oh lovely, lovely patterns....

Living in Love and Light, with all of you! 

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Missing you....thoughts shared by Patsy

Do you ever feel lost and alone... like your best friend isn't listening anymore?  I know that I am not alone.. and I have not lost my best friend, but with the movement of the planets or the fluctuations of the vibrational fields or something... I am not on the same frequency any longer.  In the midst of all this vibrational change, I am not making contact with my surrounding folkes.  I see them.  They see me.  But the connection feels broken.  This is a sad state of affairs.  Makes me wonder if I have misspoken, or pushed away.... something must be broken! 
Spring is here!  The birds are singing and I can hear them - feel their joy at the warmth of the day and the beauty of the moment!  I feel it, and yet I don't share it.  Is this burnout?  Is the vibration going to shift?  What can I do to reconnect to the ones that I love? 
I am hanging on to my sanity. 
I am walking in my shoes. 
I am here. 
Where are you?

once again,
Living in Love and Light,


Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Tuesday Thoughts to Share from Patsy

"You, who make angels stutter and mystics moan - congratulations for being here so well. It's not an easy gig, this thing called life. In fact, it's quite the ass-kicking experience. But oh, how you're living brilliantly anyway.  Even when you think you've failed, the Universe stands in awe of you. Even when you forget who you are, blades of grass long to rub up against you. Even when you hide your gifts, the air aches to breathe you. In. Thank you for existing so perfectly." - Sera Beak

These words are from one of my favorite authors, Sera Beck.  She is one hot diva goddess with a very potent pen!  She is now assisting in manifesting a REVEAL Conference this spring (May actually!) in New York City with Urban Zen. ( http://www.urbanzen.org/events/reveal-womens-conference-2011/ ) 
I would love to go myself... and wanted to share with you!  But what caught my eye first are the awesome words of Sera Beck.  Check out her book, The Red Book and look for her soon to be published  Redvolution .

I'll share more with you soon! 

Living in Love and Light!


Thursday, March 24, 2011

Ebb and Flow....

...of our life...  it's so true.  Many things have been ebbing and flowing within my life, how about yours?  I have been feeling the pull of the Super Moon for several weeks now.  All the other things that have been happening around the world have been affecting me, as I am sure you have been affected too.  I have been feeling as if I have been in slow motion.  Pulling through a long stretch of vanilla pudding...feeling the pull against my legs and the suction as my feet slowly pull up and out of the muck, and then plop back down into it for the next step.  Whew!  But we are now moving forward for just a minute or two... until the Mercury Retrograde!  I have such good feelings about this retrograde though!  I am starting to feel my energy levels building and am so looking forward to my projects that need to be completed!  Why, just today I pulled up old carpet and padding in my loft area, and with the help of my husband, searched out all the little staples and nails and then primed it with some stinky, but well recommended primer.  Now we are ready to lay the linoleum!  Out with the old and in with the new!  I am also going to finish the pastel series that I started on historic old buildings/areas of interest in our downtown area.  I have 3 completed and at least 3 more that have caught my interest.  I plan to finish them by the time that Mercury finishes with his retrograde! 
So how are you dealing with the energy surges, downloads and miscellaneous interferences in your world?  I have been trying to keep myself amused by watching how others are being affected and their reactions to it.  Some have been amusing, while others have backfired on me!  Mostly work related, but some at home as well.  I had to pull up the carpet in our loft because the dog kept wetting on it, and the shampooer was just not getting it clean anymore.  Oh, our water heater broke last night... started leaking at the top and the bottom.  Wonder where that came from...?  My husband's radiator also started leaking on Sunday... hmmmm water, water, water...and related to hubby... (the water heater is located in the man cave, where he spends a great deal of time.)I'll have to think about that one for a minute! 
So, change is a happening, and we are all being affected on several different levels.  I hope you can enjoy the ride as much as I intend to!  I think it makes it easier to roll with when you realize that it's not just you being affected. 
As for me... I say, Come on Mercury Retrograde!!!!! Wheeeeeee!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

To My Friend, You know who you are...

Picture by Brittany Mauriss

 I See You

I peer through the window,
The raindrops smearing and blurring
Your image.

I look again and see you as you are. 
Rain on your head, your shoulders, your face. 
I know that you feel the rain washing you. 
Do you?

You are finished with all the dirt, the pain,
the crap that other people load on you.
It is washing off in the rain
Puddling at your feet
Draining off into the grass
To be recycled in some other form.

Come inside
When the rain stops.
When you feel clean.
When ever.

I can show you the path to the door.
You don't have to come in the window.

I have walked that path many times
In the rain.

Patsy Dollar

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

My first meditation-Ieshia

I'm sure that everyone has stories and experiences of "first times". Most of these types of experiences are universal and recalled by people with nostalgia and fondness and sometimes, maybe even regret. This is my story from one of my "firsts".

About 10 years ago, I was just beginning to practice yoga. I'd always been intrigued but had never explored this wonderful method of movement and meditation. I have to admit that at the time, I just thought of it as an alternative form of exercise, and really had no idea of the vastly diverse forms of yoga. Nor was I aware that yoga was a form of meditation.(I'm still mostly ignorant of all the different forms of practice.) All I knew was that it kept me flexible, was low impact, and I didn't have to run! That part was great for me! So, I found a small yoga class locally to participate in once a week, and I invested in a set of yoga tapes. My son was only one and a half at the time, and it would be so funny to see him come into the living room while I was practicing a sun salutation and throw his arms up in the air and say "I'm doin oga, mama".

After some time of practicing at least every other day or so, I decided to bust out the meditation tape that came in the set of yoga videos that I had puchased. The thought of meditating was never even a glimmer of a thought that had crossed my mind prior to this. As a matter of fact, even prayer was not something that I was comfortable with. I was born and raised as a Catholic and the extent of prayer in my life centered around bedtime prayers when I was a small child, and the rote prayers taught in catechism (sunday school) classes until I was about 14. While I had been doing some post yoga relaxation (corpse pose), I didn't even realize that it was considered "meditation".

So, on that warm, sunny day, in the middle of my living room, on my yoga mat I sat, and attempted my first "meditation".

Well, Ieshia, how do you meditate? I suppose I sit here cross legged with my hands on my knees, classic finger and thumb touch pose, close my eyes, and breathe. Well, ok then, here goes.......wait a minute...what is this? Close a nostril, breathe in the other, pinch it closed, open the other, breathe out? well, ok, we'll do that for a while. What's that guy saying on the video? Imagine what? oh...ok....relax the muscles...feel for tension.....relax some more...hmmmm...this is pretty nice....

I don't remember a concept of time during this meditation...it could have been five minutes, or twenty, what I do remember is that at some point, the instructor said to imagine that warm oil is being poured over your body and flowing over you, relaxing your muscles even further........and that's when the most wonderful, profound feeling happened to me. What I felt was the presence of another, another in the room with me, pouring a jar of oil over my head and down my body, telling me how greatly and profoundly that he loves me....me, just the way that I am. That he knows my struggles and my pains and that it doesn't matter, for I am Divinely loved and cherished.

That was the day that my search began. That was also the day that my healing began. Sitting there in my living room with sobs racking my body and tears running down my face, I KNEW, knew beyond a shadow of a doubt, that I am a child of the Divine...and that there is so much more to the Soul and Spirit of a person than I was ever taught by any one religion.

That was also the day that God Got Bigger. No longer was God only the one I was taught about, He was also now a part of every person I ever met, or will meet, or will never ever come in contact with. God was also inside of me, where I could go to talk to Her whenever I needed to. While I tend to fall back on what I've been taught, and I do most consistently identify myself with those teachings, I no longer allow another to define my viewpoint of those teachings. I make up my own mind. Most of all, I go back to my own experiences and judge what I learn by what I KNOW from those experiences, and by what I FEEL in my heart. That was also the day that I learned how to listen. In the quiet of meditation, I wasn't just talking to God any longer, by saying prayer, but learning to listen and to feel His presence in my life. He was always there....He was never elsewhere.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Freedom from Pain

In Love & Survival:
8 Pathways to Intimacy and Healing,
Dean Ornish, M.D., writes:
“There is a time and a place for drugs and surgery.
Even when these are necessary,
they are just the beginning.”
In some ways, the Freedom from Pain CD was created because the techniques on that CD are what worked for me as I overcame chronic pain. I had been given a diagnosis of degenerative disc disease—L4, L5, and S1, and osteoarthritis of the hip. I was told that I needed to have a hip replacement but, since I was only 38 years old at the time, it was suggested I wait. Otherwise, it was thought I would have one hip replacement, and it would only last 10 years, then I could only have one more, and would be left with no options at 58 years old.

I was evaluated at the Post Polio Clinic at University of Michigan. There I was told I had not actually had polio when I was five years old, even though I had been diagnosed with (and had been treated for) polio in 1955. I was prescribed a lumbar support, a shoe lift, and physical therapy. I was taking 1,000 mg of Naprosyn daily.

With everything that was done to me, my symptoms got worse. I used to say that I had bad days and worse days. I never had a day where I was pain free.

The medical doctors told me I would not be able to work, I would be in constant pain, and I was told that I would never have quality of life. I am so grateful that you don't have to take bad advice, even when it is delivered as a hypnotic command, and even when you paid for it!

One of my friends was a nurse. She needed some quick CEUs so she attended a Healing Touch Level 1 workshop. She came back from that, brought me her manual, and gave it to me saying, "I don't know why I took this, but it is you." I did not know anything about chakras, or auras, or meridians, but I knew a lot about chronic pain, and one of the techniques said it was for relief of chronic pain.

Learning about energy healing gave me my life back, and I have since dedicated my life to sharing that with others. Now, over 60 years of age, I bike, hike, and totally enjoy life!

The opening track on Freedom from Pain is a progressive relaxation technique. Track two is a deepening of the relaxation response. Track three (Etheric Vitality Plus™) is a technique from Healing Touch. People not only benefit from doing this, but they are actually learning focus and breathing and visualizing for health.

Self Full Body Connection is on the last track and it is the technique (also from Healing Touch) that I taught myself to do on myself. It is the technique that resulted in my being able to get off all of the pain medication in a matter of weeks! I still use this one regularly, and have had wonderful results with it with others over the years as well.

The drawing of the hand positions for Self Full Body Connection are available as a free download from our Website at http://www.scs-matters.com/Download/self-full-body.pdf, and is also available with the language of a familiar Western prayer called the Our Father or the Lord's Prayer for those who prefer that language. That link is http://www.scs-matters.com/Download/self-full-body-OF.pdf.

It is wonderful that there is something that can make a difference for you, too. This photo is me, at age sixty!

The Freedom from Pain CD retails for $25, plus tax and shipping and is available online at: http://mythreesistersonline.com/  or at http://www.scs-matters.com/products.shtml

Friday, March 4, 2011

Divine Spark In Ginger

  By Rev. Debra Basham

“By saying grace, we release the Divine sparks in our food.”

When he said this, Rabbi Herschel (see http://gratefulness.org/, February 24, 2011) might well have been thinking about ginger!
Long before McDonalds was serving up millions of burgers, nature was providing us with pretty impressive herbs. Huffington Post ran an article on the benefits of ginger: “A new study finds that two types of chemical compounds found in ginger—gingerols and phenols—can be used as an analgesic to treat muscle pain.”
Ginger has for some time been known as an aid to digestion. According to a study in the Journal of Alternative and Complementary Medicine, ginger was also deemed to relieve menstrual cramps as effectively as Ibruprofen. You can make your own tea by steeping some fresh ginger root for 10 to 15 minutes. Add organic lemon juice and local honey for additional health benefits, delivered via yummy taste.
Make a scrub for glowing and smooth skin using ginger, Epson salt, and lime juice, reportedly very popular at Lake Austin Spa Resort in Austin, Texas.
Remember, however, herbs are no different from all the other areas in your life. It is important to know how much benefit you can receive from something, as well as the risks. Make smart choices.
In a study done at Brigham Young University, ginger was shown to bring more relief from motion sickness than the ingredient used in motion-sickness medication available over-the-counter (dimenhydrinate). I assume this is without the dry mouth or the drowsiness....
Wow, now I know why I really enjoy ginger chews. I often have some with me as my choice for “road food” when I travel.
This week, remember to really get the greatest benefit from everything in your life, make sure you have a healthy mental attitude. Check out this three-minute video on the healthy way to take medications on YouTube: Mind-Body Tips for Taking Medication, or let me know if you would like to receive the handout for this.
Share these tips with a friend or family member. Someone cared enough to send it to you!
Borrowed (with permisson) from Debra Basham, SCS Matters

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Patsy said: "... It's 9 o'clock, where are we going with this?"

I am so full of words and creativity and I want to spew it all out and share the thoughts and the art and the intuitive feelings that are here!  But I really need to find a focus and a topic and then stay with it as much as we can!  I ask the question of the folkses that assist me with such things, my posse, as such.  And they all chime in with a topic that they would like to share, so I may have to take a number and start over.  That being said, I will share with you a bit of my day, how is that? 
This afternoon I had set aside time to go meet with my husband and have my military id card renewed.  It had expired after only 3 years... huh.  So off we go to the military base to get in line. The system has gotten much better over the years and we were in front of a service representative pretty quickly!  (I had pre-planned that! Thanks to my posse!)  So, the year that I had my first retirement id card made, my hair was long and reddish.  That was many years ago - oh wait, only 3 years ago!  The picture really does show how much I have changed... both inside and out!  So these physical changes are now being noted on my identification!  First the lady asked if I wanted to change the color of my hair listed on the back of the card... That is a first for me!  I've always listed my hair as brown, but it really has changed drastically now - it's mostly white (not sure what has happened with that!).  She updated that on the card, then she asked about my height... well I used to be 5'4", but it seems that I've shrunk a bit and we updated that to 5'3".  Now the question everyone loves:  What about your weight?  Huh?  Did I want to change that?  She has changed almost everything else on the card, so I gave her that information as well (you will have to guess that number, sorry!)  So, the point that I wanted to make for all this is this:  WoW!  I have really embraced a lot of new thought patterns and processes and upped my vibrations and WoW!  I have really changed mentally and  physically and it has affected my outward appearance!  But I think the changes have been for my highest good.  And so does my posse!  We are now communicating (most of the time...) and I am healthier, physically and (I believe) mentally, than I ever was!  This is pretty awesome!  I am so excited to have traveled this far and I am so grateful for all the friends and guides that have opened my pathway with me! 
There is still a lot of movement and change going on, not only with me.  I keep seeing the Tower in my tarot spreads... both for me and for others.  There is also a lot of vibrational changes and downloads going on, as I'm sure you have noticed.  Been sleeping well?  Back or top of your head feel a little tingly?  That could be a pretty good indicator!  I've got to keep reminding myself to drink enough water and even if I can't sleep, I lay down and rest my body.  Meditation is importation as well.  It allows my brain to take a break from the daily monkey chatter that goes on with me. 
My point is this:  Embrace the change!  Take a note of  it, see if you can mark the changes that have already happened, both physically and spiritually.  Oh, did I mention that change is not always comfortable?  Laff!  Oh yea - sorry!  But if you can notice that you are uncomfortable because you are resisting the changes that are pushing you, you can sometimes stop the resistance and enjoy the ride. 
So, I never did find out where we were going with this. I know that there is more to be said, (my ears are vibrating!)  But this is the end of this blog for now!
Living in love and light!

( and as I am finishing the writing of this, my computer shuts down my explorer.  Apparently there is still more to be said but I will have to come back to it another day....)

Sunday, February 27, 2011

It's Sunday Evening.....by Patsy

... and I sure could use some more weekend!!! How many times have you said this on a Sunday night?!  I tried not to set too many goals for the weekend days and for the time that I know that I have... but you know how it is... I always think that I have more time that I do.  The main thing is that I did accomplish the main goal I set for myself. Yeaaa, Patsy!  I completed another picture in the series I have started for local area buildings of interest.  The Roxy is complete!
I have recently been taking art classes from a local lady, Kimberly Santiago.  She is a wonderful lady who landed here courtesy of the military and her dad - many years ago, and she is good at teaching and making it fun!  So, I have been taking classes from her.  I decided a couple for months ago that I wanted to lengthen my list of things to do that I consider fun, and added drawing with pastels to the mix!  I never considered myself to be a 2 dimensional artist, I've always worked in 3D materials like clay.  But I decided that I wanted to see if I could draw - or "color" as I affectionately dubbed it.  I thought that if I call it something a little ridiculous, and it didn't work out, then no great loss.  I was just "coloring".  Well, here's the catch,  I like to color!  I really like to take what is in my head and make it come out on paper!  Another catch!  I don't always make it happen from my head to my hand to the paper...hmmm, go figure!  I started this process by first meditating and asking my guides to join in the fun and help me get a picture or two on paper.  I got all kinds of help!  Guides, and fairies and trees and all kinds of stuff flowing out of my head and onto the paper!  Wonderful!  I enjoyed it and we all had fun "coloring"!  The challenge?  I like to make art that is saleable.  The pictures that were coming out, while interesting and fun, were not always what one could sell! 
So then, a friend of mine suggested drawings of the local area.  I thought that was a marvelous idea!  The hitch?  I really can't draw! Not on my own, I can't!  I asked for help.  I really needed help on this one!  So, I went out and took some photographs of some local buildings that I thought were interesting and not too challenging.  I came home, had a little meditation, and sat down to draw.  I really called for help this time.  Not just asking for appearances and peek ins!  I wanted to draw a building and this would mean that I would have to connect my left brain with my right brain and make something happen.  I selected a picture of the new fountain in Clarksville, and started drawing!  My guides and angels came out in full force.  Okay!  Grid this and measure that and make sure that the perspective is on!  Wow!  I really channeled a great picture!  I am so proud and surprised at how well it came out!  But I really shouldn't be!  I had great help!  So since I did so well at that one, I thought, I'm gonna do another!  So the next time, I selected the Customs House Museum.  Gables and stuff... thank Goddess for TREES!  I had to ad lib a few extra limbs to make that work - but work it did!  GUIDANCE was there once again!  But I noticed that I was really working hard at all this "coloring"!  I thought, "this isn't supposed to be this hard, is it?"  That is when I went looking for an instructor. 
Here is the kicker.  I have completed a series of classes, and it has been great!  I have learned a lot about planning and placement and perspective.  But it is still WORK.  And planning and math and making the left brain co-exist with the right brain, ugh!  It appears that I have done a very good job at separating the two and not making them work together as often as they should.   So, I have come to the conclusion that that is the lesson that has come out of this.  Not the art or perspective, but the balance of bringing the left brain, logical part of myself, in with the right brain, creative part of myself, and balancing together to make things work.  All this time, I have separated this... and thought things were fine... now I am learning differently.  And it's working, it's a good thing to keep logical lefty and creative righty together, kinda like working in reality and playing in spirituality.  When they are blended into one, your life blends and becomes smoother.    So now I have a series of pictures that are emerging, and they are part left brain - math and measuring and making sure that things are in perspective, and part right brain - creativity and guidance from my spirituality and help from my posse!  
Wow, that's a lot of verbiage!  Hope you stuck around till the end!  Keep on the look out, I'll post photos of the drawings for your viewing pleasure!  Oh, and the artwork for this blog, that's by me... after a lesson or two from Kimberly!  See how she helped me focus my thoughts!
Living in love and light,

Friday, February 25, 2011

The Final Frontier-by Ieshia

As a lot of people know, my family and I are intending to go to Florida in April to see the final launch of the  space shuttle Endeavour, and just yesterday, the space shuttle Discovery lifted off on it's final mission. Like most people, I really didn't think about the space program a lot...it was always something in my periphery awareness, except when the horrible accidents of Challenger and Colombia occurred. NASA was just an entity that I took for granted, and astronauts were going into space and exploring. I wasn't aware of their schedule, but I knew that they were out there doing it, seeing wonderful things and discovering amazing discoveries, and that we all were benefitting from their efforts. I didn't even know that this year was going to be the last of the shuttle missions until my husband mentioned it last fall. Because I now live so close to Florida, it makes it much easier for us to go ahead and make the trip. I have to say, I never had the urge to go to the space center or see a launch, it was something I never thought I'd get the opportunity to do, so I never dwelled on it...but now...well, it's different.

Looking at the photos of Discovery sitting on it's launch pad, and studying the scenes of this most seasoned veteran lifting off on it's final mission, filled me with this overwhelmings sense of pride and nostalgia, and maybe even a little bit of melancholy. There is so much about the power and ingenuity of the human mind and heart in those pictures. So much of our love of adventure and our work ethic etched in the lines of that engineering marvel that is the shuttle, that it is so very hard to convey in words. Space exploration, even the words-the final frontier-is so much a part of the American Spirit as a Nation that it is difficult, for a person that has never really thought of it, to grasp. The shuttle and the people who man it embody so much of what the U.S.  people want to be. They are our best and our brightest, fearless, enthusiastic, hard working, adventurous, and they are go-getters, and family men (and women), they are embassadors, they are peacekeepers, and they are POWERFUL! Aren't these the traits that we strive for both individually and as The United States of America? And maybe even as a WORLD?

So, for the next month and a half, I'm going to try to calm down and NOT die of anticipation, LOL, as I digest and integrate what this chance to see the emodiment of the Human Spirit means to me. For now I know I'm very, very proud of what the Space Program has been for and done for this nation that I love, the symbolism and majesty that it has brought to our national persona. I will probably also mourn for the ending of this era of American space exploration, and because we don't know quite when or how it will continue, I will hope for and anticipate the American return to space in our future. Because, even though I choose to explore the inner workings of myself and God, there too always needs to be those that explore outward, that bring the images of how big our world is, and how vast the power of the Human Spirit working with God, is manifesting itself.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Cording and Questions from Patsy

Good Day to all of you!  I have recently been 'reset' (as I call it) by going in for a vibrational therapy session with tuning forks.  I HIGHLY recommend you try this!  I have always achieved good results and truly enjoy the experience! 
So, I wanted to put this out there for all of you, who may read this and can give me some direction.  While at my session, I mentioned that I was really feeling pain or something in my solar plexus. This has happened before, and I have noticed it and went about my business without doing anything.  This past week, I had been doing a therapeutic meditation with one of Doreen Virtue's Cd's to cut cords and bring light and do a little general clearing and cleansing.  It was after that that I noticed the pain.  My therapist suggested that I cut some 'cords'.  Hmmm.  I thought that I had cut the cords with the meditation exercises and Archangel Michael.... She then asked if I had healed the spots where the cords had been...?  No... I didn't even think about it.  I had just went through the meditation, considered myself cleared and went on about my business.  Not such a good idea, folks!  When we cut something off... duh, we really should clear and cleanse the area and douse it in healing light!  Well, here I am with cut cords that are leaking and oozing and probably reconnecting as well.  So I have been working on removing the cords and healing Both ends of the cords.  That means healing myself where the cords were connected and sending love and light to the other end of the cord... to the person that corded me in the first place.  Oh, and for those of you whom I have inadvertently corded - I apologize!  That's another thing that I am finding out.  It's not just me that is getting corded!  I am sending these little buggers out and plugging into people as well! 
Question: Why would I cord someone?  One obvious answer to me is my children.  I know that I have probably (ha- probably!  You know I have done it!) sent out those guilt/mother cords in order to make them do what I would like to see them do!  I have been trying to reel those back in, without making too much damage apparent.  Where else have I been sending out cords?  Sorry about that!  What can I do to control the cording?  Can I get some comments on this subject from you all?  What causes us to send out cords?  I know that jealously and other lower vibrations can cause cording, but what else? 
Give me some feed back, please? I want to know more about cords!  If you don't want to post here, then drop me a line at mythreesistersonline@gmail.com . Talk to me about cords and cording!!!!!
Also on this subject;  what do you do to clear them up?  Keep them from reattaching?  How do you follow the cord back to the sender? Do you even want to follow the cord back? 
I am trying to research this a bit on the web... I think we all need a little class on it!  As I gather more information, I'll share with you! 

Friday, February 18, 2011

Today is a good day to die....from the heart of Patsy Dollar

Yesterday, as I sat and contemplated what status to put on FaceBook for the day that would best exemplify my feelings for the world, the words that came into my mind were:
"Today is a good day to die." 
I know that those are pretty dramatic words, but they really do say what I feel, and that is, I am content with where I am in this world.  I could do more, but would it make any difference to me or others if I did?  Not to say that I plan to off myself - not by any means.  But I am content.  What a wonderful place to be! 
Last week I was feeling the frantic pace I had set for myself.  I didn't have time to go pee, much less die!  I was questioning my goals, and the path that I had taken.  It was awful!  I know that it's good to shake things up a bit - occasionally - but it's not always the most comfortable situation to me.  I questioned myself, my heart, my guides and everyone else.  I don't recall getting the answers.  But I must have downloaded something, because I feel that I am at a good  place right now.  I am still moving - forward, sideways and in a spiral... but I don't feel out of control... chaotic... or crazed. 
I am thankful.  And I have been guided to write another haiku... love these little, short bursts of insight... little cameos of thought. My baby girl dog, Sassy helped with this one:

Early morning walk
     Blooming dawn in the east sky
Streaks of yellow, pink, grey

I am going to take the streaks of light and dark with me today.  Along with the completeness of  "It is a good day to die." 

Living in Love and Light

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Full Moon, Full of Wonder... by Patsy

I am back.  Whew!  I had a few moments of craziness that I will attribute to the upcoming full moon and the crunch of getting most everything on the website that I wanted.  Its not all there, but we had advertising, and all that hoopla, and even though the business cards are in the mail, we are launched!  So it is: My Three Sisters ~ Online.  Thank you to all! 

But that is not what I wanted to talk about tonight.  I wanted to talk about the beauty of the full moon as it hovers over my part of the world.  It is so bright and wonderful!  I love the freshness of the full moon on a soon to be spring night!  It shows out the shadows and the things that I normally don't notice when I come home to my family in the evening.  I really wanted to drag out a chair (and blanket) and just sit for a moment to bathe in the moonlight and refresh my feminine spirit.  But I'll save that for tomorrow eve. 
It's funny how I know it's coming, whether it a full or a new moon.  When I tune into my intuitive spirit, the moon talks to me through my guides and angels.  It's wonderful to feel them more fully, and to enjoy the moon and the emotions that are pulled by the forces of the moon. 

The moon she shines full
                   The emotions are drawn out
Delighted wails sound.

So as I am refreshed by the moon, expect more writings and musings to come! 
Living in love and light!

Monday, February 14, 2011

A Little History of Valentine's Day AKA: Lupercalia (shared research by Patsy)

 Funny how these things work out!  Here is a little history about the holiday today.  
I need to get me some goat hide!!!  I want to make sure that I don't have any curses hanging on me!  This morning, I thought I would Google Valentine's Day.  I knew that most holidays have Pagen roots to them, and I wanted to see if St. Valentine's Day was any different.  It's not - laff! My question is, how do you go from being a day to purify and bring abundance and then freeze from to martrydom... what do I know...? I'm still researching!  But I thought this little bit of information was interesting and I borrowed it from http://www.meridiangraphics.net/lupercalia.htm   , if you are interested in further info.

 Each year on February 15, the Luperci priests gathered on Palantine Hill at the cave of Lupercal. Vestal virgins brought sacred cakes made from the first ears of last year's grain harvest to the fig tree. Two naked young men, assisted by the Vestals, sacrificed a dog and a goat at the site. The blood was smeared on the foreheads of the young men and then wiped away with wool dipped in milk.
The youths then donned loincloths made from the skin of the goat and led groups of priests around the pomarium, the sacred boundary of the ancient city, and around the base of the hills of Rome. The occasion was happy and festive. As they ran about the city, the young men lightly struck women along the way with strips of the goat hide. It is from these implements of purification, or februa, that the month of February gets its name. This act supposedly provided purification from curses, bad luck, and infertility.
Long after Palentine HIll became the seat of the powerful city, state and empire of Rome, the Lupercalia festival lived on. Roman armies took the Lupercalia customs with them as they invaded France and Britain. One of these was a lottery where the names of available maidens were placed in a box and drawn out by the young men. Each man accepted the girl whose name he drew as his love - for the duration of the festival, or sometimes  longer.
The first modern valentine cards are attributed to the young French Duke of Orleans. He was captured in battle and held prisoner in the Tower of London for many years. He was most prolific during his stay and wrote countless love poems to his wife. About sixty of them remain. They are among the royal papers in the British Museum.
By the 17th century, handmade cards had become quite elaborate. Pre-fabricated ones were only for those with means. In 1797, a British publisher issued The Young Man’s Valentine Writer, which contained suggested sentimental verses for the young lover suffering from writer's block. Printers began producing a limited number of cards with verses and sketches, called “mechanical valentines,” and a reduction in postal rates in the next century ushered in the practice of mailing valentines. 
This made it possible to exchange cards anonymously and suddenly, racy, sexually suggestive verses started appearing in great numbers, causing quite a stir among prudish Victorians. The number of obscene valentines caused several countries to ban the practice of exchanging cards. Late in the nineteenth century, the post office in Chicago rejected some twenty-five thousand cards on the grounds that they were not fit to be carried through the U.S. mail. 
The first American publisher of valentines was printer and artist Esther Howland. Her elaborate lace cards of the 1870’s cost from five to ten dollars, some as much as thirty-five dollars. Since then, the valentine card business has flourished. With the exception of Christmas, Americans exchange more cards on Valentine’s Day than at any other time of year.
Chocolate entered the Valentine's Day ritual relatively late. The Conquistadors brought chocolate to Spain in 1528 and while they knew how to make cocoa from the beans, it wasn't until 1847 that Fry & Sons discovered a way to make chocolate edible. Twenty years later, the Cadbury Brothers discovered how to make chocolate even smoother and sweeter. By 1868, the Cadburys were turning out the first boxed chocolate. They were elaborate boxes made of velvet and mirrors and retained their value as trinket-boxes after the chocolate was gone. Richard Cadbury created the first heart-shaped Valentine's Day box of candy sometime around 1870.

So, there you have a version of St. Valentine's Day!   And let me remind you, today is the day that we launch the MyThreeSistersOnline.com estore!  Go and shop! And Happy Lupercalia!  (Got any goat hide?)
Living in love and light,

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Yesterday...when I was at the library.....(Ieshia's musings)

Well, I'm sooo glad that that's over! You know, my old pity party? Yeah, I'm done, thank goodness! Onward dear friends, onward!

So, yesterday, when I was at the library, I got a nudge. You know the Nudge, the one where you stop in your tracks as you're making a beeline to some goal that you've made or some place that you're headed? Yep, that one. The nudge that signaled me to STOP and do this little swingy/pivot thing and to look back the other way. (I was headed straight to the online catalog desk.) By the way, does anyone else remember the old style 3x5 card catalog system? The one with the ginormous cabinet full of index cards that were meticulously typed and cross referenced in all their respective catagories? Yeah, I think I'd like to have one of those cabinets, there's a lot you could do with a piece of furniture like that, but what a bitch if you had to type all those cards up right? I wonder if they teach that anymore in Library Science? The class could be called What a Bitch it Was Back When We Hand Typed and Filed Dewey's Cards. The underheader could say Great system, Dewey, but thank God for Computers!

Ok, I really need to focus...I'm so off track my typing is getting all skewed....a signal...ya think?!

Alright, nudge......swingy/pivot thing. As I swing to the right, my gaze flows over the used and for sale book racks. I occasionally go have a look in there but not that frequently. But there I was, feeling like I was being pushed a little from behind to make my way over the the sale books. Dude, I didn't even have to browse, I put my water bottle in an open spot on the shelf and Bamm! there was a book titled Women, Food, and God by a Ms. Geneen Roth. Well, hot damn, I'm definitely a woman, definitely always thinking about food, and God that would be a Yep! thinking about God too. So, after I went ahead and perused the rest of the shelf, hit the catalog and browsed a few more titles in the racks, I handed over my big ole dollar and brought home my new/used book.

I have to say, my initial reading of the synopsis told me this was a diet book (but how many women do you know that have NEVER read a diet book?) but it was the God part that intrigued me. And while I'm only about half way through, there's not been a lot about God in the book. There has, however, been a lot of wisdom about listening to the SELF when it comes to food and trusting the SELF. There's been even more about how we use food in order NOT TO FEEL and to cover our emotions.

This isn't a blog about how great this book is, or how great this weight loss method is (that could come later...maybe) but about how the wisdom I've read so far pertains to everything I've been studying and working on for the past 4-5 years-meditation, communication with my guides, my concept of myself and others as extensions and expressions of God/Goddess/Source/the Divine/etc. Because when it all comes down to it, if I hadn't trusted an unspoken urge to turn around, I would never have even picked this book up. I think what I may find, is that if I put the same kind of analysis into my feelings about food (or anything else for that matter) that I put into analyzing if I just recieved a message from Spirit, that I'm going to learn quite a bit about myself and why I do the things that I do. And because I'll be making more of an effort to understand how my feelings and emotions effect me, and more of an effort into acually FEELING the emotions, that I'll start becoming a better channel for Spirit. Oh, and I'll also learn a little bit more about self Love....and isn't that what God is? You betcha, popsicle, it's all about the LOVE all up in here!

Easy As Pie ... Musings of a Lunatic (by Patsy Dollar)

So, I am finishing up with a few loose ends that I deemed needed to be done on the Grand Opening of our new metaphysical estore.  I have to tell you, I think I may have bitten off a bit too much this time!  I can totally relate to a friend of mine that has a brick and mortar store.... there is always something that needs to be done... yesterday.  It's all a bit overwhelming.  I am formally asking for help.  I need a jewelry maker, a crystal seeker/seller, and whom ever else would like to step in and lend a hand or a foot or even a reading! 

I've been soul path searching today. I am wondering if this is truely the path that I am to be on... and if so, Why?  This is not easy.  I would like to make things easy!  Delegate or just relax about the deadlines that I set for myself.  Perhaps that is the lesson....?  Should I be less driven and more relaxed?  These are the questions that I am asking.  It should not be this hard to get things done... should it? And why am I stressing over it.  I'm the one that set the deadline on this anyway, so that means that I can change it.... yeah... not gonna happen.  I feel the obligation of the estore and people that I have gotten together for it... and I have not even contacted all the people that I had hoped to have on-board by now.. my apologies to them! 

So if you are listening... bring me some light (at the end of the tunnel) and some helpers, please. 
As for the rest of you... enjoy your relaxation!! And send me some love - especially on this St. Valentine's Day Eve.
living in love and light,

Monday, February 7, 2011

Releasing, Releasing, Releasing-or, My Give a Damn's Busted (Ieshia's rant)

Well, where to start? I guess I start with the constant information that I've been reading about releasing. Releasing clutter, releasing relationships that do not serve your highest good, releasing expectations of a certain outcome, releasing self flagellation (or beating yourself up)....I have to admit THIS is one of my big issues. It is also the issue that brings me here today to tell the world (ok, or maybe just those that decide to take a minute) about why my give a damn is busted-or at least temporarily out of order.

I do have to mention that ever dreaded word-HORMONES. This could be a major contributing factor to this round of releasing being like a big ole sucker punch to the guts. Wait...let me re-quantify that, a big ole ROUND HOUSE KICK to the guts. There. Better. (don't you just love being a girl?) Well, for those of us that ARE girls.

Let's just say, I didn't look far enough ahead in the future to consider the ramifications of some words that I said. (this has happened way more than once over my life...but about twice in the immediate last few weeks) The ramifications of my words have brought me quite a bit of stress and worry. I don't like hurting anyone, even if I never intended my words to be taken in a manner that would be considered hurtful, and I don't like DRAMA. OMG...was there ever more hateful of a state? At least, it makes me completely and totally uncomfortable and anxious. I don't even really care for MOVIES that are considered DRAMA.  For pete's sake, I used to have to leave the room when someone did something embarrassing on a television show because it made me anxious, why the hell would I intentionally do something in my real life that would create that kind of anxiety? Nevertheless, that's what happened. Once, I said something that someone could consider hurtful, and second, I said something that could possibly happen, in which case I didn't know any specifics and was speculating. In neither case, did I think ahead. Boy, what a mistake.

Now, I know that there's always a lesson (I said that once before already, didn't I?) My lesson right now is to think, really think about the things that I do or say to others. I've always felt that a true friend will consider you, along with themselves, when deciding to do something that may effect you. I didn't do that in either of these cases. For that oversight, I humbly beg forgiveness and apologize to those involved. The other lesson that I need to process right now is forgiving myself for reacting, and acting, in less than a manner of integrity.

AAAAaaaaaannndd.....this is where I keep kicking myself today. (Funny how I can forgive a friend so much more quickly than I can forgive myself. It also makes me think that those hermits of yesteryear were so completely on to something....no neighbors....no temptation...no DRAMA! oh, and no GIVE A DAMN! except in a cosmic/global sort of way) Now, I've considered doing just as the hermit has done and completely isolating myself.....I've never been a social butterfly and tend to have socially awkward moments, hence the wrong reaction/comeback said in the wrong tone that hurt someone's feelings but I do realize that this could be a slow death for someone like me who really does need to have some interaction with others. I probably will pull back quite a bit though...it's just my nature....hunker down, figure it out, and allow myself to heal, because not only do I believe that when we do something there is the possibility of hurting another, but I believe that if we do hurt another, we absolutely hurt ourselves. We're all ONE, right?

So right now, I'm getting ready to go into my hunker down phase. I tend to be a lot more cautious (good thing), and a lot less trustful (bad thing), when in this phase. At this time, I'll be able to re-evaluate and release and come out the other side all the stronger for it. Unfortunately, it's gonna be pretty much all about me and a lot less about being able to listen to everyone else. (For some reason, I have the sounding board phase of friendship pretty much down pat.) This time, I hope to have a lot of that "releasing" thing mastered too.

Til then,

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Downloads, Cosmic Shivers, and the Veil By Ieshia Reigel

Good Morning! I am not GREAT at being a morning person, but I do try! (and what a morning it has been) So, welcome to February, my friends. Along with being my birth month. February started with  a little bit of a whimper, when my alarm went off this morning, and proceeded to a full on BANG for me. (This is where I go all woo woo on everyone!)

(Disclaimer: this blog is pretty long and a little woo-woo, No- I am not off my rocker)

My story begins with an experience that I had in Ocober of last year. I was getting ready to head to the great state of Arkansas for a crystal digging trip near Little Rock, as well as trying to fight off a sore throat/head cold. At this point, I try not to take a lot of OTC meds because I prefer to drink tea and honey and maybe take some natural herbs-ok I may be going off track here. In any case, I went to bed 2 nights before I was to leave my home in Alabama to head to Tennessee to meet up with Patsy (who'd have guessed that one, right?) and her sister for our trip. When I went to bed I don't think that anything odd had been going on. I had, however, been having a LOT of energy running through my body over the previous few weeks. So much so, that I described it as "being hooked up to an electric line at my head and feeling the voltage run to my feet". So, I can't quite remember when the energy started picking up that evening, but I do know that it did. Now, I don't know if anyone has ever had this experience too, but if you have, you know that sleeping is pretty much out of the question. So I tossed and turned and did as much dozing off as I possibly could.

(If you're wondering where I'm going with this, hang in there, I promise I'll get to the point.)

Somewhere around 2 or so, I did get up, hit the bathroom and then drag my sorry butt back to the bed. I looked at the clock and lay down to attempt to rest. I remember closing my eyes and immediately I started seeing images. Everyone has dreams, sometimes full color, sometimes not, so remembering dreams is not unusual for most. The most profound part of this for me though, is that I wasn't asleep! I could feel a humming all over my body and as I closed my eyes, I felt a tingling at the top of my head (not unusual). The images, however, were very unusual. The only way that I can think to describe it is that it looked like a web page document. You know, like you're reading something on Adobe and you use the scroll wheel on your mouse to make the pages move up? That's what it looked like. It felt like I was standing in a darkened room with a great big movie screen in front of me and this web document scrolling in front of my eyes. There was absolutely no way I was reading this document though because it was moving WAY too fast, and I couldn't get it to slow. I even remember walking up really close to the screen and willing the page to slow down so that I could read it.....no dice.

Well, let's just say that I was super excited when I got up the next morning and I remembered what had happened the night before, and that I pretty much gushed about my "download" to all of my friends about it in the next few days. Did I have any idea what had been in the "download". Nope. Not a one. At least not consciously. So, I filed this experience under "extremely profound and cool" and "to be understood at a later date", and went about my business. Not forgetting what happened, but not really focusing or thinking about it either. That is...until this morning. (Ha, you thought I forgot, didn't ya? [and while this is totally possible and highly probable, I did promise to get to the point])

Now...here we are, the first day of February, and I'm up, moving as much as a "not a morning" person does in order to get her kids off to school on time, and getting ready to take the dog for a walk after the bus leaves. As me and the kids are waiting for said big yellow vehicle, out of the corner of my eye I think I see a pair of legs briskly walking from the sidewalk in front of my front door to my driveway. Huh? Nope. No one there. The lady that runs in front of our house is at the far end of the street so it wasn't her. Maybe I did see something....just not with my regular "eyes". I chalk this up to my "I might have seen a ghost/alternate reality/whatever" experiences....and get my munchkins off to school.

Cut to, walking my dog down the street where there are a bunch of branches the neighbor has trimmed off their trees laying along the side of the road, and I get the feeling of those branches being surrounded by flitting fairies. Ok, whoa Nelly....you didn't actually see anything so, chalk it up to feelings and possibilities, and maybe a little imagination, don't rule it out but don't say for sure.

Twenty minutes later, turning around and heading home, sweating, talking to the dog and trying to get her attention so that we don't get caught in the rain that is starting to drizzle a little, we walk by a home that is empty and for sale, with a bush growing beside the mailbox. Is that wings flitting in that bush? A butterfly maybe? Wait a minute, there are no butterflies yet (even here in AL), no bird in that bush, and NO BREEZE. There is a clump of leaves from last fall still in the bush where the flittling was but not movement. Ok, that one I did see but I can't explain.

Ok, now here is where we come to the pertinence of the download thing.....About 1/2 an hour ago, I was checking my e-mail. I decided to read a message in a newsletter that I subscribe to from the EarthKeeper website. As I'm reading, I actually had a moment where the image of me looking at that screen the night of the download popped into my head, and then it hit me, the COSMIC SHIVERS. This e-mail looks like the download did. There was a border on the image of the download that was the same color as the border on this newsletter. This may not seem like a big thing but this is kinda an odd color, not yellow or brown or mustard, but some color around that spectrum. Add that to the shivers? yeah...I think maybe this message may have something to do with the other.  Add all the things that I saw and felt this morning to a message about angels and reality and Light and I have to wonder, is the information that I got that night starting to come into my conscious awarenss? Is the veil maybe a little bit thinner today?

At this point in my life, I don't exactly believe in coincidences.....I always HAVE believed that everything happens for a reason. Did I have these experiences today because I'm seeking? Yes, I think that's part of it. I also think that it's part of my Path opening up for me. There is so much we don't know about reality, God, Spirit, the human Soul, Heaven, Angels, Fairy...and the list goes on. I try not to judge and to just be open to it. I think as long as we look with eyes of Love and with hearts of Compassion, there's no telling what will happen. And when we hit on Truth, maybe we'll all be able to delight in some of those Cosmic Shivers! So, here's to hoping that your day is as magical and wonderful as mine has been!

Til then,