I Am... today, A Rainbow Child! by Patricia

There you are,

immersed in your emotions.

let them flow from you in ripples and waves,

gentle, gentle...

find your center in the chaos.

Hallo my friends,
I wan to share with you the fabulous event I went to in Nashville, TN, called the Galactic Expo.  I have been going for several years now and each time it is more fun and entertaining... and of course, enlightening.  This year was no exception!  But for some reason, each event that I participated in left me weeping.  Each person/healer/communicator touched me and the contact they gave me was overwhelming.  For some reason, that morning, the piece of jewelry that I chose to wear was a large piece of snowflake obsidian, in the shape of a triangle, hanging over my heart chakra.  Did I intuit that my heart was wide open that day, and my need was a little filtering of the emotions that were going to be flowing?  Perhaps.... either way, I seemed to have wept my way through the expo... in a much needed period of release and allowance.  I seemed to have accepted the fact, or perhaps given myself permission to be, a person that has emotions... and is allowed to show them.  Wow... that's a big lot of permission to go with! In the past,  I have not been one to show emotions... I don't like to show a lot of emotion, as I have the misconception that showing emotion is showing weakness.  (Don't ask me where I dragged that out from.. but I have carried it with me for lifetimes.)  I am sharing it with you all now, because you will be the ones that will be benefiting from the onslaught!   Warning! Warning! Warning!  Here is your chance to run!  It's gonna be like a volcano!  Some will be burned in their boots!  Others will be drowned in the chaotic whirlpool!  Or you may be the lucky one that feels that you are seated beside a burbling brook, all shady and calming.  There is no schedule here, you will get what you get! 
So, back to the Expo!  I also had my aura photo made... also an annual event!  This year there was a lot of action going on in the photo! I look like a rainbow child!  Blue and turquoise and yellow, red and orange and green!  Little dots of white.... and the man that gave me an explanation of the photo - wow! ... again with the tears~ already!?  It's funny how the inner is so reflected in the outer!  My aura reflected the turmoil in my heart and in my throat in swirls of greens and yellows.  And with the incoming reds and oranges... the upcoming explosion that is soon to be, will be an exciting event!  I think that I will channel it into a large piece of artwork... the pottery is going to be opened soon... this could be a very chaotic pot or bowl!  All the colors of my aura were bright and reflected my focus on this dimension... at this time....I am where I am... there is an echo here!
I also found a wonderful selection of art of god/dess's!  I found and purchased depictions of Kali, Shiva, Durga and Budda!  They are sharing space in my meditation room now, and have been working with me in much needed ways!  Thanks to all!
So for those of you who missed the Expo this year... there is always the next!  I hope to share the experience with you in person! 
The past weekend was a wonderful, clearing, exhilarating time!  Now, we shall see what the upcoming days bring! 
Living in Love and Light,

Patricia

AKA Patsy

Giving up Ganesh (Ieshia)

Wow, it's been a while. Sorry for that. Life is getting away from me! Maybe that's a good problem to have. In any case, here are some of my most recent musings.

Recently, I finally got up the gusto and set up my own personal altar. Not anything elaborate, mind you, but something that I can definitely use for my meditation practice and my intentions and that reminds me of all the wonderful things that are in my life. On my altar, I've placed a lot of my crystals, some I've mined from the ground on my own, others that I've purchased and some that have been given to me....each has a special meaning and a special story that reminds me of my connections...with others, with God, and with myself. Also, I have my Tingsha's, whose clear sound help me get in my space and who also singal a detachment from Spirit so that I may return to being here and now. A rosary, to remind me of my Catholic roots, where I come from, and also the hidden Divine Feminine, that was carefully hidden but still honored in the Faith of my roots. Water, mirror, candle, tarot cards, and whatever else I feel needs to be there, I'm sure will make it on to my altar. They all have a meaning and a reason for being in that place, even though I may not even consciously know it, or acknowledge it yet.

The one item on my altar though, that is causing a stirring in my home (besides my Tarot/Oracle cards-which is a WHOLE OTHER article in itself) is my small 10 inch high statue of the Hindu God, Ganesh. Now, I always like to say that I know enough about something to be dangerous, and in this case, that means that I know enough about Ganesh to know that he is a Hindu Deity, called "the remover of obstacles", he has an elephants head (some form of childhood episode involving a be and re-heading, I think), and he appeals to me on a lot of levels. In my home, the danger of this is that I'm willing to bring an image of this God into my space because a)I like and identify with the phrase "remover of obstacles", 2) the statue is a gorgeous piece of artwork, and 3) in no way am I actually praying to Ganesh and replacing my beliefs with Hinduism. However, I am aware enough that to others, having an image of  one of another religions deities in my house could lead some to believe that I have converted or am "worshipping idols". (on another note....let me just tell ya about the "idols" of the Catholic Church...oh yeah...they're there.....and this could lead to a whole other discussion of the human mind's need for a solid construct representing God....maybe I need to go for a psychology degree)

Ok...getting back on track.

Being raised as a Catholic and now married to a Protestant, I am very aware of the differences in our thinking and conditioning as far as religion goes. I'm extremely familiar with statues and images depicting the Blessed Virgin, St. Joseph, and the baby Christ....my husband and his family...not so much. Oh, I know that they've seen them...but these type of religious trappings were not a part of their weekly/daily religious experience. So, when I brought the statue home a year ago, I didn't blare any horns or make any announcements....quietly placing it where I would see it and know it was there, contemplating it and being greatful of any lessons I could learn in regards to it. My husband had a few issues at first, and yes, there was an argument, but overall, once I assured him there was no conversion/worshipping happening, he seemed to tolerate and indulge me Ganesh. Well, now that I've created an altar space for myself, Ganesh has come out of the closet (or, off the bookshelf) so to speak.

I did tell my husband before I let him walk in to our room and see my altar for himself.....informing him that if it bothered him, I would make a new space in another room of our home, which he asked me to do. Here's where it gets sticky though....while he may not care for Ganesh (and my tarot) on the altar...the room I was going to place my altar in, is the room his parents will be staying in when they come to visit tomorrow. At this point, I chose not to move the altar yet for this reason beause my in-laws will not hesitate to make their feelings known and could possibly be extremely offended by my altar. (yeah, I had a hard time with the concept of an altar too at one time. Christians are not known for having a home altar, that's in a church.)

So, last night, he did again ask me to take Ganesh and my cards off the altar before his parents come to visit....and while I'm having a bit of an issue with this...I will comply with his wishes in order to keep the peace and avoid an all out scene which my family is not ready for at this time. (you should have seen their faces when I compared Harry Potter to a parable...saying it's just a story demonstrating good and evil and such....not good) Do I feel I'm hiding my beliefs from his parents? Yes, maybe a little bit, but I also don't want this visit to be about competing or different belief systems...it's supposed to be about my daughter and her dance recital and a time for my children to visit with their Grandpaents in Love. My solution then is to go ahead and close the cover on the box of cards on my altar...that way they're no longer visible....and to move Ganesh to a spot on top of my husbands large chest....only about 5 feet higher than he is now, but out of the immediate field of vision. When I asked my husband if he thought his parent's would come into our bedroom and see it, his response was "if it's out, they will"...and he chuckled. So, I like to believe he's becoming more comfortable with my changing and evolving beliefs, even if he doesn't think his parents will.